Idk what I want anymore. It seems like I recycle girls every week. I have a handful of girls I can just go to an play whenever I want. I don’t like plying these girl, but I really don’t know what I want.all I know is I want something real. I wanna love again. I want someone to love me and care for me as I do them. I wanna be on the same page as someone. I really just wanna feel again. I wanna love.
I can care less of what people really have to say. My feelings just keep coming out, and I don’t wanna hide them anymore
Honestly I’m done. I told myself to stop bottling things in. I miss you so much boo. I really do. You’ve helped me reach my highest and you’ve seen me at my lowest. What’s the perfect girl if its not the perfect time? Is the best way I can describe us. Because you were everything to me. I just could t handle the periods and times where we would be apart from each other. I’m sorry I didn’t stay strong for you. I really am. You said we can still be friends, but who are we kidding? We were young and in love, and can never be anything less than that.
I’ve tried keeping it bottled inside. And I just wish the best for you. Like I always have. Just gotta be strong.
Idk why I even pulled that last night. I overreacted I know. So what?! I don’t care if I did. I really don’t. It should tell you a lot! It’s a struggle. I’m struggling. I know you are too. But damn, why can’t you just tell me the same? Nothing. Just forget I said anything.
I feel as if I don’t do enough. Or all that I did isn’t enough. Will I ever do enough? Is it possible
I was always one of those guys who knew what to do. Who always had a plan. But idek anymore? I put up with so much shit, I’m to the point where I’m just like “Fuck it”
